#353 – Guilty Blessings
I hear about a lot of other youth pastors and the struggles they face in their jobs.
They have to work crazy hours.
They have to take vacation time to go to summer camp.
They have senior pastors who can’t remember their families’ names.
When I hear about the struggles they face, I end up feeling pretty guilty for how God has blessed me with the job that I have.
I love my church.
I thoroughly enjoy my job and the people I work with.
I’m proud to call my senior pastor my senior pastor.
God chooses to bless whom he’s going to bless and we shouldn’t argue about it. There are people far more deserving of God’s favor, though, who don’t appear to have been blessed as much as I have. I know I’m basically a screw-up, but God still chooses to bless me even when I don’t deserve it.
The reality is that none of us deserve God’s blessings. It seems like we have an easier time accepting the trials and struggles. It’s easier for us to understand the hardness of Battlestar Galactica than the utopia of Star Trek. But just like we can never hope to understand a God whose ways are not our ways, we’ll never fully understand why he chooses to bless some and not others.
Really, I don’t know why God orchestrated my life so I ended up in amazing job, with amazing people at a church where I met my wife. And I really don’t know why people better than me are unemployed, toiling in jobs they can’t stand or still looking for Mr. or Mrs. Right.
The ways in which God blesses us shouldn’t make us feel guilty. When God blesses us we should be grateful and then look for ways to bless others. Feeling guilty because of God’s blessings doesn’t do anyone any good; it keeps us from thanking God and thinking about others.
We just need to accept that God is good even if we don’t understand it, even if we think he should be good to others before he’s good to us.
If God is giving us Gene Roddenberry’s utopia then he wants us to bring that blessing to those aboard Galactica. We may not deserve that kind of blessing but it shouldn’t surprise us. God is good, he loves us and he wants to bless us. And when God does bless us we shouldn’t feel guilty, but we should strive to be like God by loving and blessing those around us.
How do you resolve with the guilt that comes with blessing?